A little warning, this rambles in a bit of a stream of consciousness...Also photos are mostly just randomly inserted.
Although my track record in ultra endurance bikepacking races has been spotty to say the least, finishing only the East Idaho Epic, scratching twice from the Silk Road Mountain Race, and breaking my wrist during Ascend Armena in the great endangered river crab incident, I again signed up for a notoriously difficult ultra endurance bikepacking race. This was the Highland Trail 550, which is over 550 miles of largely mountain biking.
Some important preliminary things about the Highland Trail 550: The race organizer, an Englishman named Alan Goldsmith, is very committed to promoting women in sport and the environment. There is no entry fee but you must donate to a tree charity. He has been seeking 50/50 gender parity at the start for awhile, much to the dismay of the many men who want to get into the race but face more difficulty than women who currently can get into the race much more easily. The result of Alan's efforts is that this event felt VERY inclusive, warm, supportive, and welcoming. Granted I am still exhausted, but when I think about the kindness shown to me by other riders and people in the HT550 community, I get weepy. As far as races go, this is the closest I can imagine a race coming to a group hug.
Further, Alan created a category of sorts where people could commit to getting around without using single use plastic. Since I am better at strategy than riding bikes, I thought this would be a good and fun challenge for me. And it was. I got around eating pub/restaurant meals, baked goods placed in paper bags (I brought my own for places that used plastic), canned food (there are recycling bins anywhere there are trash bins), glass jarred peanut butter and pickled eggs, and chocolate in paper and foil (such as Tony's, Rolos). I also started with at least 5 pounds of bulk candy and 4 Firepot meals in compostible bags. It was a challenge but not at all impossible and I never went hungry. I challenge you to walk into any store and find snacks that do not involve the purchase of single use plastic. Think about all the plastic in our food, bodies, oceans, everywhere. You don't have to be a rabid environmentalist to see the problem... This really opened my consumer eyes. I won't pretend that my carbon footprint isn't massive. But I will tell you that perhaps I can do much better. See https://highlandtrail550.weebly.com/plastic-free-ht550.html
In Scotland, it seems that most land is owned by large Estate owners. However, there is a "right to roam" which means there is public access to these lands. This route was largely on double track estate roads, single track, and a small amount of pavement (tarmac as everyone else in the world seems to call it). I'm embarassed to admit that I underestimated the terrain based on my prior tour in the Highlands. I had a vague sense of what boggy meant, and a vague sense of what Scottish single track might be like, but really did not understand entirely what I was getting myself into. That was until the first day of the race, which was definitely not easy. I was under the misguided impression from a podcast I'd listened to that the first part of the route to the north would be "fast." I suppose it was much faster than latter portions of the race, but it still kicked my ass. I began the race well and fully humbled, as record holder Lee Craigie said we should be in her pre-race speech, and also perhaps demoralized. I said some very mean things to myself about myself. I won't repeat them. I would never talk to someone else this way. Very early in the race I ran into a prior finisher who I think is the oldest person to finish. His name is Chris and he told me to ride my own race and "hurrying is rubbish." This cheered me a little but did not quite quiet the mean self talk.
At the very start a friend from Glasgow whom I met at Silk Road, Paul Coates, gave me a hug and told me if I ran into trouble or needed a ride I could call him. This was extraordinarily comforting and I made it a goal to not have to call Paul. I was garbage (sorry, rubbish) but surely I could avoid creating problems for others!
Side note: a funny little incident on that first day was that I somehow picked up a screw which punctured my tire and sidewall both. While repairing these punctures, a group of men from the Glasgow area came upon me and provided some world class entertainment and humor. They were not impressed by my bike repair skills though I got both plugged eventually. By the end of the race I used nearly all my plugs. I leaned that yes I can troubleshoot basic repairs.
Anyow, the first day I rolled quite late into the Melgarve Bothy, certain I had bitten off much more than I could chew and trying to figure out what I should do. I honestly believed I could make it on the first day to the next bothy over the pass and in much better time. My self-doubt was reinforcing itself.
The night in the Melgarve Bothy was cold. The weather for the entire race was on the cold and wet side, with on-and-off rain on a near constant basis and temperatures that mostly hovered between freezing and the 40s. I was well prepared though with more kit than probably anyone else and never felt too horribly miserable. It was cold at night in the sleeping bag I brought, which was in hindsight not the best choice. Frankly, if I had it to do again, I'd aquire a synthetic bag or hydrophobic down (assuming that actually does substantially better in damp conditions which I haven't researched). Anyhow, I was chilly for my sleep in the bothy in a room with a man whose snoring was possibly that loudest I've heard in my life. Even with earplugs, it was not a quiet sleep. But it was better and more convenient than camping. Bothies are a very cool thing in Scotland where old estate buildings have been converted to shelters for people out recreating in the hills. They vary in how nice they are as some have fireplaces, but all are fairly simple. I was thrilled to finally have the chance to sleep in a bothy in the Scottish Highlands.
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| The primitive bothy at the bottom of Fisherfields where I stayed with Julie |
When I finally got moving the next morning, which was not nearly as early as it should have been (a theme that would repeat every morning for the entire race), it was a lovely morning. I got to the top of Corrieyairack Pass and had a moment of clarity. I had so wound myself around the axle with my imposter syndrome and lack of self-confidence that I was obviously not enjoying myself. I wanted desperately to enjoy myself. This was my vacation! I left my lovely family behind for this solo venture. I made a deal with mysef: relax and finish this event and you can never race again if you don't want to. I turned my phone off airplane mode and withdrew my application to the Iditarod Trail Invitational (yes I would come to somewhat regret this). It was cathartic and I relaxed and things only improved from that point forward.
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| The first glimpses of sea on the west coast |
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| Sheep! |
There is a lovely long descent into Fort Augustus from the pass. Near town, I saw my friend Rob Waller (I met him at Silk Road this past August) coming up the path towards me. He had been dealing with his own struggles, and came back to make sure I knew where we were having breakfast. I think he also knew I needed a pep talk. This interaction was a huge boost. I had breakfast with him, Ian Barrington, another Plastic Free competitor (me, Ian, Rob, and RD Alan Goldsmith had committed to getting around without using single use plastic), and Bryan Singleton. This breakfast was a reset of sorts for me. My mood was pretty good for the rest of the race. Rob rolled out of Fort Augustus with me and then was gone, being substantially faster at riding than I am.
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| Julie pushing into a rainbow |
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| famous castle in Dornie |
I spent the second night off course in the town of Beauly, where I slept in a nice hotel room and had a nice hot bath. The hotels seems to have heated towel racks which help for drying socks and kit. My shoes had no chance of ever drying during the entire race, but I managed to start each day with a pair of dry socks protected under my vapor barrier socks. That foot system was great and my feet never macerated. I also quickly realized that if I could take care of myself, even if it meant appearing more like someone touring than racing, I had a good chance of finishing the race. I wanted to finish and I wanted to enjoy myself. I remarked jokingly to a friend yesterday "is it a race if I had fun and didn't suffer?" I'll let the angry race bros (of which I didn't meet any in Scotland) sort than one out because I don't actually care. My friend Jule Perilla who lives part time in Alaska and part time in England had also stayed in Beauly and we rolled out together at a respectable 5:30 a.m. Rob had also stayed in Beauly and I saw him on and off for a bit until at some point I think he scratched, un-scratched, and re-scratched.
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| Kintail, before a steep hike into Glen Affric. I nearly cried I was so awe struck by the beauty. |
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| Lunch at a triple water fall on the climb into Glen Affric |
The riding was as best as I can recall pleasant though not easy as I made my way past Oykel Bridge and into Glen Cassley, which was clearly a big fishing destination. I camped for the first time in my new tent and realized it was not as easy to pitch as I thought. It really needs to be staked out just so. (It's a dyneema Z-Packs shelter tent that uses one light pole and lots of stakes). I still managed to sleep though water came in and pooled in one corner of the tent. Everything was a bit damp and stayed that way for the duration of the race. This next day of riding was (as best as I remember) quite spectactular and I made it past the most northern point of the route and over to the west coast. There were rainbows and glimpses of the sea and it was just stunning. I caught Julie who was having a low moment and we stopped together at a B&B along the coast past Drumbeg. (The Drumbeg stores owners were amazing. I love them).
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| Pies at the Lochinver Larder, where I could spend a day eating pies. |
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| The Whisky Trail Angels seem to me an integral part of this event. I drank this at Oykel Bridge. |
The west coast section of the race featured the most challenging sections which included a long hike-a-bike (the Ledmore Traverse), the Coffin Road (a steep hike-a-bike into a long bog), and Fisherfields (after a huge river crossing a steep hike-a-bike). The cumulative effects of pushing my overloaded bike were most acutely felt at the top of the Fisherfields climb where I struggled to heave my bike up and over the big rocks to the top. I made it though, having no other choice. Which was a recurring theme - I could do things if I had to. There was a reasonably tall gate where I had to ultimately lift my bike over the gate to the other side. I did it. Not easily, but I did it.
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| The gate (wooden bit) that cannot fit a bicycle - the metal gate is locked |
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| Julie ahead on the Ledmore Traverse |
At the bottom of the Fisherfields descent, which we did in the dark and therefore did not ride any of, we stayed in a bothy that was quite primitive with dirt floors. It was welcome though. Julie announced her intention to scratch and her plans to return next year with a vengence. We parted ways in Poolwe and I continued on. It was sad to leave her as she and I made a pretty good team I thought, but I understood. (Alan allows you to ride together as long as you are not sharing kit and such).
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| Julie taking selfie of us |
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| Me at the top of the Devil's Staircase which takes you into Glencoe |
The rest of the race was unrelenting both in beauty and difficulty. Each day included some manner of hike-a-bike and techy single track I'm not able to ride because I am at best advanced-beginner at mountain biking. It became clear at some point that my aspirations of an 8 day or better finish were not happening without some serious sacrifice of enjoyment. Nah. New Danni who was taking care of herself and having fun stopped early to camp outside the Strathcarron Hotel where they had pizza, a shower, and a much enjoyed pint. I stopped early at a hotel in Ft. William my last night, despite being fairly close to the finish. I could not bear to camp in the rain. I had a huge dinner. I was the only one left out on the course, and was greeted along the way by Hatty Doherty, a fast woman finisher, and the Whisky Trail Angel who gave me a sticker, and at the Glencoe Ski Center, last year's lantern rouge Becky Beale greeted me and lifted my spirits. She had a recorded message from another rider, Suzi, that made me almost cry. Suzi had also sent me a song, which was touching. (Life Boat by Raye - give it a listen).
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| Becky! |
Five miles from the finish, I was surprised by my friend David Murray (whom I also met last year at Silk Road) who drove down from Kincraig to greet me at the finish. We rode into the finish where Hatty, the women's winner and third overall Kerry McPhee, and second place Ashley Cordingley were waiting with a finisher's beer. Again, I was overwhelmed by the kindness and supportiveness of the other riders. It was a treat to see Hatty again - she is so rad. And I have such a huge girl crush on Kerry MacPhee she's the consummate sportswoman whose first language is Scottish Gaelic as she comes from the Hebrides. We all went to the pub for a pint and I went to my hotel and enjoyed a hot bath and the glory of having finished this race even if it took me a full day longer than I had hoped (I finished in 9d12h).
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| Left to R - Kerry MacPhee, me, Hatty Doherty |
As I write this nearly a week later, my joints still ache. I am still tired and wrecked but happy. What an amazing experience. I'm grateful that I could spend more than a week in such a beautiful place with such beautiful people. Reintegration into my normal life is always tricky after an event, and this is no exception. I don't know what's next for me but I have some ideas. I'd like to PR in the 5k. For real. I think ultra-endurance racing is over for me though I already wish I could return and do this again!



















